Chapters 17-20

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My talk with Sally and old Luce got me thinking as to why they both don't take me seriously. When I was with Sally, I told her how we should go up to Vermont and stay in a cabin while I look for a job; she couldn't even think about it before she said the whole plan was "fantastic" which killed me. She didn't even believe that I actually thought we could follow through with it, which was crap. She kept saying that we need to wait until after I go to college and then we could start doing these things. When I was with Luce, he kept saying I need to "grow up"and how he preferred mature people over people like me. I just don't understand why everyone thinks it better to wait until were older until we could have fun. I mean goddam, why can't we do everything now? Why does everyone have to grow up? Growing up doesn't seem worth it, Carl grew up and although he is intelligent, he does not enjoy my jokes any more.  I found these lyrics to a song somewhere and it made me feel a lot better knowing that I am not the only person that doesn't want to grow up.
                                           "I Don't Want To Grow Up" - The Ramones

When I'm lyin' in my bed at night
I don't wanna grow up
Nothing ever seems to turn out right
I don't wanna grow up
How do you move in a world of fog that's
always changing things
Makes wish that I could be a dog
When I see the price that you pay
I don't wanna grow up
I don't ever want to be that way
I don't wanna grow up
Seems that folks turn into things
that they never want
The only thing to live for is today...
I'm gonna put a hole in my T.V. set
I don't wanna grow up
Open up the medicine chest
I don't wanna grow up
I don't wanna have to shout it out
I don't want my hair to fall out
I don't wanna be filled with doubt
I don't wanna be a good boy scout
I don't wanna have to learn to count
I don't wanna have the biggest amount
I don't wanna grow up
Well when I see my parents fight
I don't wanna grow up
They all go out and drinkin all night
I don't wanna grow up
I'd rather stay here in my room
Nothin' out there but sad and gloom
I don't wanna grow up
Comb their hair and shine their shoes
I don't wanna grow up
Stay around in my old hometown
I don't wanna put no money down
I don't wanna get a big old loan
Work them fingers to the bone
I don't wanna float on a broom
Fall in love, get married then boom
How the hell did it get here so soon
I don't wanna grow up
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